pain being alone

when you feel all alone in this world, and there's nobody to count your tears...just remember no matter where you are, Allah knows.

This is part of the lyric of the song that helped me to get through all the pains. Recently, I felt distanced; from my friends and families. As if everyone's avoiding me. That was torturous. But then, I reflected on my relationship with Allah SWT. Did my relationship with Allah went worse day by day? Did I forget Him when I have all other people surrounded me with happiness?

So, it's all my fault.

Once, a brother from Egypt told me, "If you feel that your relationship with humanbeings is getting worse, reflect on your relationship with Allah first."

Fine. I'll try to improve my ibadah, mainly my solah, because that's the medium of communication between Allah and humanbeings.

But then, why did my relationship with other people has not getting any better?

Ye la... If you just stay there and do nothing, of course nothing will change. I mean, rather than waiting for everyone else to approach you, why don't you start first? Approach other people and mend the broken communication you've had with them. Fight the urge of 'trying to be someone in the limelight'. Syaitan would love to mislead you into thinking that you're 'the centre of the universe'. Nope. Tak perlu dilabel 'cool' oleh manusia di bumi untuk dipuji oleh penduduk langit.

Baik. Baiki hubungan dengan Allah adalah yang paling utama. Moga Allah kurniakan rahmatNya, dan bagi ketenangan dalam hati kita. Lepas tu, dapat ilham untuk perbaiki hubungan dengan manusia lain .... ada faham? (^^)